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“Michael Calante, Michael Calante, Michael Calante,” I heard being announced in unison with a cascade of chimes. What is happening? Where is this coming from? Then it hit me – my phone! Mikey was calling me! Yes, my Mikey! Those chimes are the special ringtone Lorena set for him. I rarely hear them, but when…
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“Michael Calante Michael Calante Michael Calante.” I heard being announced in unison with a cascade of chimes. What is happening? Where is this coming from? Then it hit me- my phone! Mikey was calling me! Yes, my Mikey! Those chimes are the special ringtone Lorena set for him, just in case he ever called. I…
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I am so proud of myself. So So proud of myself. Five gold stars and a little trophy for me! I did it. I shared a part of myself! My truth with a man I care deeply about. Now, maybe for some this is no big deal. After all, I am a grown ass woman.…
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You know, Dad was a great Dad. Even though I feel like I got cheated out of him as a kid. He was a wonderful man and Father. I guess there are two types of cheating. The kind where you feel you missed out on something special – got the short end of the stick…
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“I’d like another Shirley Temple please.” I said to the waiter. There I was wearing my new black velvet dress with white lace trim. It stopped right above my knees. Mom often said “Always show those legs of yours my Sweetheart they are so beau ti ful.” My feet dangled off the chair and the…
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“I’ll go to my side of the bed” I whispered in Michael’s ear. Now, if it was up to me I’d be stuck to him the entire night, skin to skin. But I was aware that my usual tossing, turning and wiggling when I sleep could keep him up and that man needed his sleep.…
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“Une Pommes Frite” Claudio shouted as he stood at the counter of Al Fogolar the chicken cafe he bought without my knowledge. To be honest, maybe it wasn’t quite a shout. His normal talking voice was loud and low and booming. Now I was in the back, behind the wall, standing in front of the…
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There was a time where Mikey was Wiley E. Coyote and I was the Road Runner. He was the cat and I was the mouse. He was the Lion trying to get me in his lair. He couldn’t hold on to me, keep me there, I HAD TO GO. This wasn’t on purpose on my…
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A leaf of doubt, a pinch of fear a tablespoon of stories with obsession near Fold in worry and my past Blend well with ego and and the spell is cast Abracadabra. The spell starves me of any joy. It usually starts to kick in on Thursdays. A stirring. Similar to a tiny sore throat…
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I sent the text. The invite… it went like this: “Ohhhh Mikey… thinking of you. Get together later?” I did not need to include a heart, a winky face smiley, red lips, or a little purple devil on that text. It’s all implied. That’s all it took. Then I went about my business, knowing he’d…
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“Mama needs to put you on a little diet Sweetheart, I see 5 extra pounds on you and you are so darn cute.” Mom said. We were standing in the kitchen, Me, in front of the cupboard looking at all the goodies. Mom, to the right of me. I knew it was my right because…
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Going to Lucky’s grocery store was always an adventure with Mom. Some adventures were better than others. It was like going to the store with a bratty 10 year old being told they can get whatever they want. “Just throw it in the cart Corinne.” Two particular times still reside in the corner of my…
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“Your Chariot Awaits” Mikey’s words. He is standing outside leaning on the hood of his car. The big trees standing tall in the night sky. I feel the cool breeze of the night wind and the warmth of my body. He is wearing his dark jeans, black button down shirt and donning that smile that…
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“YOU NEED TO LEAVE HIM” I screamed. There I was squatting, yes in squat position on the patio. On one side of me was an old beach chair and on the other side a surfboard propped against a barbecue grill. My brown hair was wavy from all the humidity that day. I was barefoot. Wearing…
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So I am going to Ralph’s to buy a chicken. Seems like I’ve been trying to buy this chicken for almost 4 weeks now. The truth is I keep going to Ralph’s but not my class. I can’t seem to find the chicken. I’m missing the class I love for a few reasons, but one…
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A new day. Can I start my new year today? It’s been a rough week or two. The obsessing. The rumination about Mikey. He’s been my rumination victim.Maybe because it had been three years ago on February 4th. I don’t know. The last two weeks weren’t all bad, but boy did I struggle. It had…
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I had finally found the treasure. It was in Tonja’s kitchen pantry. There, strategically hidden behind two rolls of paper towels and a bottle of Christian Brothers Brandy, a big bag of candy. The bag was filled with Hershey Bars and Kisses, Krackles, Nestle Crunches, Snickers, Twix, Kit Kats, Peanut Butter cups, Twizzlers and M…
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I’m not sure when it started, “it” being the Investigator in me. Regardless, it did start and it took off like wildfire. I mean it was the Perfect Storm. 2. Secrets, my parents had lots of secrets. So, it went like this: I went to Ralph’s to buy a chicken, but really, starting at a…
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“The biopsy came back positive for breast cancer.” I reported back the results of the biopsy to my dear sister. May 18th, 2023. Criss or Crissie as I call her, is my one and only sibling. My big sister. When the mammogram showed something suspicious, she was the one that took me for the biopsy.…
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“Your Father and I are getting a divorce Corinne.” I was 11 years old and babysitting across the street at the Lynberg’s home. A three story home. Huge. It was just me and some baby they had asked me to babysit. A BABY. I was definitely not the best kid for the job. I had…
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Travel to the cavernous place of your soul dear friend. Free dive to resurface a new. Plunge into your heart. Explore. Root out the agony, the pain that has silently secreted venom in your spirit and life. It is time. It’s time. Time to go. Time to live. The right time. The time to shine.…
Salami and Rollerskates 